My name is ellison. I am a 23 year old male and if I died tomorrow it would be as if I was never here. My existence is meaningless. Because of this recent revelation I am trying DESPERATELY to find a path to where my time can lend help, health, and hope anywhere I can. I am an environmentalists who is a supporter of many causes such as wildlife, hunger, genocide, homelessness, etc. Unfortunately I too have a wife, two dogs, three guinea pigs, two birds, and a mortgage. I have free time to volunteer but where does that leave the other 8 hours a day? Currently I work at a place that builds exhibits for trade shows and I loathe it. It goes against all of my convictions. We buy thousands of dollars of non recyclable, toxic materials. We print thousands upon thousands of literature and pamphlets that are handed out at the shows (and then thrown away). We build gigantic booths that stand for no more than 5 days and then most of it gets trashed when it comes back. I hate my line of work. It doesn’t make sense to me. Production doesn’t make sense to me. Anything but helping your fellow man/woman, the environment, and the creatures that inhabit this planet DOESN’T MAKE SENSE TO ME! But I have a dilemma, I want to work for a nonprofit but were to I start? I am here for some help, and guidance. I have a family to support, but I am tired of being counterproductive!